i feel so stupid when i get depressed. wish i never even opened up this page to type. what the fuck am i depressed about. what is with this goddamn mood. how do i fix it. i hate myself shit man i really do im a pretty useless person. no really all i do is sit around watch some movies or play guitar hero. the only time i leave this goddamn house is to go to work. which is overnight anyway. antisocial fuck.mmaybe i need to loose 10kg. gain some self confidence. or respect. then hope i find someone that’ll love me.

i always fall for the wrong people. my big downfall. their always to old. taken. hate me. too far away. not real. i suck ass. i really do. fuck i am fat piece of shit. i really need to get healthy and quit with the binge bullshit because im bored. also need to excercise. but man do i hate goddamn excercising. maybe i should get myself into a coma. oh please let it happen i beg.