mummys big debut

so i know my brothers an asshole and i am a lazy no good daughter, but seriously mum we arent bad kids. take a look at these other families, sarane and brent for example. craig is a litttle fucker of a son almost as bad as they can get, now they deserve breakdowns, but i dont really think you did. not yet anyway, yes joel doesnt know when to shutup and watch the mouth but no harm is intended really, he just doesnt know? and i cant help but think if the little breakdown screaming of ‘STOP IT! JUST SHUTUP! STOP! LEAVE ME ALONE LEAVE ME ALONE!’ was all towards your big debut as an actress and meant for heartfelt sympathies from us? well im sorry but you did a terrible job, it really pissed me off yet it did feel weird seeing you cry, i havent seen you cry in years. but people can make themselves cry, for show? i know i can. i mean only seconds ago you were laughing. i really think if you think youve reach your highest point now, you need to definately make your highest point just a little higher to reach because joel being only 14, there is a shitload more to come. as for your husband and irit stepdad of mine, please tell him to stop trying to act like me and my brothers father. sick to death of the petty rules he sets out and expects after all the bullshit he has put me and my brothers through, to want to even listen. or obey, sargent. thats the problem with army fellas these days, or atleast the older ones. their all fucking assholes, high with authority and self pride that they demand to be obeyed or your in hell. i know that he is scared of me, he may as well be praising me as if i were the fucking queen, and he does in his own silent way that my mother seems to be blind of. he has given me the most shit with his drunken foul rampages, and ive thrown them right back and i think that because i didnt take his bullshit thats why he is scared, because i will not obey and bow down to him. somedays im like get me out of this place, and then other days i wouldent want to be anywhere else (usually because he is not there), all i know is he really is driving my brothers, myself and mum apart, alienating us lot to abide by him. big alpha army jerk.